it's okay... ever since school ended, my life has gone downhill, my uncle jerry died, my great grandma is like my closest friend and she's not eating. she lost 12 pounds. last night i cried in my pillow for like, 10 minutes. my mom and dad lie to eachother even if their miles apart. they find ways. my dad lives in arkansas and i live in missouri. it sucks since i'm a preteen and my life is already a dope. blue is my favorite color since it's sad, it represents my life. i wear band t's and black a lot to. have you heard of skillet? like the best christen rock ever. my fav is the last night by them. it's what i want my crush to do, admit his feelings and wrap me in his arms and never let go... do you like sonic the hedgehog? my fav charactors are scourge and shadow. scourge is cool. shadow and me have more in common. we both know what it's like to lose someone you love, to have most of the world beggin you to do stuff and they don't give you jackk in return. he ain't emo, he's just a shadow of himself, hints the term "shadow" is his name. sorry this is so long, but it feels good to write and have someone actually listen. i'm not sayin my parents are bad, cuz they aren't. they are amazing, but they fight to much about bills, and insurance, and me. my sis is cool with it, but i'm not. why does the word 'divorce' exsist. theyhad to go down that road... you probably think i'm a baby, i'm sorry i had to tell you this...